GUIDELINES

TO START

I read Rules prior to ever following or following back. If I see anything in your rules that either I don't agree with, or that I see conflicts heavily with my own (especially in terms of Content) then I will likely Hardblock your blog and any other blogs you may have noted so that we can simply exist without potentially bumping into one another and potentially upsetting the other.Topics that will either be mentioned or written out : religious / anti-religious views, cults, brainwashing, physical / psychological / emotional abuse & torture, abusive / toxic relationships, co-dependent relationships, manipulation & manipulative tactics, neglect, medical issues, alongside what should arguably be obvious considering the genre I write in, which are : cannibalism, murder, serial killers, death, violence, written / detailed gore, dismemberment, decapitations, scalping / skinning, animal death / murder / slaughter, etc. There may be mentions of mental illness / disorders from time to time, although I don't claim to be remotely well-versed in them so I try to keep my thoughts on it limited - outside of any I have personal experience in. I will be writing these topics at times in detail and brutality. If this is upsetting, disturbing, or uncomfortable for you, this probably is not the blog to follow. Block it.I tag with either the tagname / or tagname cw formats.If any of these types of topics noted in the paragraphs above are upsetting, overwhelming, or triggering to you, again, Do Not Follow. Block this account if needed. I don't care either way. Do what you need to be comfortable. But any attempts of vitriol being sent my way for these will go blocked on my end. Again, this account is horror and slasher based - these topics are typically seen as "okay" in the characters' point of view... They are not in my eyes. It's important to differentiate that. If anyone disagrees with anything above, its perfectly fine. Block my account. But I will not entertain arguments over it. Zero hard feelings, keep your peace as I will aim to keep my own.

REGARDING CONNECTIONS

These come with time, chemistry, and / or fairly extensive plotting.Please do keep in mind : just because I may be slow adding affiliates or mains does not mean I'm against having more!What these Connections mean, for me at least :

-- AFFILIATES are those whose characters' stories have become heavily intertwined with my own. The Friendgroup we've established among one another, my Maria, Ana, Raph, etc. will Always be referencing back to my affiliates' portrayals in any interactions - unless noted otherwise by verse with any potential duplicate of said muse.---- Otherwise? When I speak of Leland, Connie, or Danny in general on my blog & in replies etc, I am specifically referring to Kels', Raes', & Scouts' characters - again, unless otherwise noted!---- In the case of Johnny, across the board unless stated by a specific AU / Verse tag with an NPC Johnny Sawyer? All Johnny-related posts refer back to Lamb's portrayal! Likewise, I am also Exclusive to Lambs' portrayal of Vittorio Toscano as well. Anything relating back to him will be in reference to Lamb!---- When I refer to Sonny, Kethren & Tarhos, it will be in reference to Slander & his portrayals.

-- EXCLUSIVES are character(s) & portrayal(s) that I will not be writing against any other duplicate for. At this time, the only Exclusives I have noted is with Lamb & his Johnny Sawyer & Vittorio Toscano, and Slander & his oc Kethren + his portrayals of Sonny & Tarhos. Lamb's portrayal of Johnny is heavily, heavily, heavily vital & crucial to so much of my Texas muses' across the board, but primarily so for Maria, the Hewitts, Nancy, and Hands in particular. I will Not be writing against any other Johnnys due to my Exclusivity with Lamb. I am very, very content with what Lamb & I have built for our characters & I am far too comfortable with his version of Johnny and himself.---- AS A NOTE : for any multimuses with any muse on the roster that I happen to be Exclusive with, such as Lambs' Johnny Sawyer - I am alright with you following! I simply will engage with any of the other muses on your roster, not those who I'm exclusive.Please do not send me anything from any duplicate muses I happen to be exclusive with others for. Anything like that will be deleted, and if it turns into a recurring issue, I will hardblock. Again, I have many reasons for my Exclusives, and a big part of that in Lamb & Johnnys' case is due to Comfort & Trust in him & his portrayal.

-- MAINS cover all those listed, at this time, of my Affiliates & my Exclusives. Lamb, Slander, Kels, Rae, & Scout are all my Main portrayals of their muses, they get priority when I write replies, with plotting, etc. Certain versions of AU's or plots I will Only do with them because of these, too -- simply out of personal preference. So I ask for understanding if a plot is brought up by a duplicate muse and I decline it because it mirrors too close / is too identical to one I have with any of them. General types of plotlines though of course, may end up with some similarities or overlaps, such as things within the friendgroup dynamics based on other duplicates' HCs etc.

- TO NOTE HOWEVER : the TCSM corner in particular is a very small sandbox that we happen to share. Outside of Johnny & Sonny who are, again, noted as Exclusives here? I am more than happy and open to writing against duplicates of any Texas muses! Again, my Affiliates / Mains may get priority just from how much we've built together the last 2 years, but that's otherwise what things like AUs are for! And I'm so more than happy to make more of those with new writing partners! I so gently pspsps at more TCSM writers to come out of the woodwork!This being said . . . When it comes to Maria & Ana duplicates, I'm going to be careful and possibly slow with approaching any in-depth dynamics between them and another muns' portrayals. If another mun I come to notice often speaks in a heavily negative light of Maria in order to prop Ana up - especially in terms of Guns' treatment towards both of their canon characterizations? Its highly likely I will keep interactions very limited - especially if those issues are also being weaved into IC content. I'm personally of the camp that these sisters LOVED one another so fucking deeply and strongly, that the idea of Ana being pissed at or angry with or jealous of Maria in Any Capacity outside of extremely simple, common sibling issues I just personally have very little to no desire whatsoever in exploring. I don't care for pitting the Flores sisters against each other outside of very strong narrative reasons. I love both sisters dearly - however, Maria is my main girl and has been since TCSMs launch / when I added her as a muse. I don't take disrespect her way too kindly and especially not for surface-level reasonings, like "true final girl" arguments. I write Maria, and rather newly Ana, in a plethora of different scenarios - neither one of them here, per my portrayals of them, strictly follow that title as Gun slapped on them BOTH haphazardly. Again though : I am alright with interacting in spite of that potential difference of Opinion. But to be direct about it? I don't really care for those arguments and I won't entertain them ooc nor will I be up for writing anything too heavily in those veins ic. Especially not if it entails any talk, ooc or ic, just blatantly disrespecting Maria in favor of Ana. Its an overused and ridiculously tiring and unnecessary narrative, in my eyes, when the fandom by and large could have instead focused on their relationship as SISTERS. Which, is what their story was ALWAYS about.

BLOG INFO

This account is Mutuals Only and Low Activity. I am also now enforcing this as of October '24 : I will mainly follow muns over 22 years old, with 19-21 yr old muns being followed solely on a case-by-case basis. This is, primarily, due to comfort considering my own age being 30+. My NSFW sideblogs, from this point on as well, will strictly be 24+.I am Duplicate and OC Friendly as long as both our portrayals are respected, and as long as there are at least some bits of dossiers / bios for original characters, even if its short or limited.I don't often follow first, mostly because I don't often use tumblr outside of basic rp-related searches like for aesthetics or musings etc. but that doesn't mean I'm not open for possible new mutuals to hang out and plot with! I say I'm selective but mostly I'm just cautious due to both some not-so-great experiences in the past but also just simply due to the genre and content that can be present, here.PLEASE DON'T STRESS OVER TAKING A WHILE TO GET TO THINGS. Don't worry about lapses in interactions due to being busy / offline / hiatuses / etc. I do not mind in the slightest! If it takes days, weeks, months, whatever to get back to something, it's likely not going to make me want to cut it off. In the case it does, we can talk about it!Point being : take your time and if focus directs you off your blog, no worries. I have my own issues and obligations offsite as well. Take your time and your breather!

I DON'T DO PUBLIC DNI'S. I manage and curate my space as I see fit. I don't interact with or reblog Callouts unless its for something extremely egregious or harmful that the community as a whole needs to be aware of the situation and those involved. I've been on tumblr for well over 15 years at this point - I've seen all types of callouts be posted and have found a majority of them tend to be private and personal grievances that didn't need to be put out in front of everyones' salads across multiple unrelated rpcs.

REGARDING SHIPPING

This blog is Multiship, meaning all potential relations or bonds are separate from one another unless otherwise approved of by all involved. There will be no shipping of any romantic / sexual nature with muses or muns under 18.Note that with Thomas / Leatherface, I have zero intentions on crossing into romantic / intimate ships with him.Also note, with my portrayal of Ana Flores, I write her as being newly turned 18 ( January 1973 ) and as a senior in high school. I will not be shipping her with any muse over 19 due to this, and will generally keep her relationships to muses around her actual age in au's where she is older than in canon by likely no more than 2-3 years. i do not & will not ship her romantically / intimately with frankly with any member of the sawyers and I'm generally not all-that-into shipping her with Maria's friends but I leave that door cracked open in case of possible chemistry / plotting in the future. I also, across the board, will not write anything regarding her and intimacy ( ie. smut / usfw ) because of how I choose portray her regardless of au's where she is older than she is in canon. I gesture gently down to the section at the very bottom of this page for a general understanding of why I have her closed off in this way. I otherwise will Not be entertaining any attempts to write out anything usfw with her nor will I tolerate any upset regarding anything noted in this paragraph either. This is a boundary to me that I will not hesitate to enforce as I see fit.

SENDING PROMPTS & MISC.

As this is a Multimuse, Please Specify a Muse you want me to respond as when you send inbox things or answer any starter/reverse inbox/shipping calls! If you don't and I cannot figure out who would be best suited to respond as, I will likely not post a response at all. If I am able, then I will likely respond with who I see fit and possibly who you weren't intending it for. I've added quite a few potential muses to the roster, it'd be lovely and much easier to know outright which of my muse(s) you and your muse(s) are intending to reach!I suffer with mental & physical illnesses that, more times than I'd like, interfere with how often I am here & writing, posting, engaging, etc. From headaches / migraines to anxiety, depression, etc, theres a number of things that hinder my activity levels. Please understand there will be lulls in how often or how much energy I have being present and chatty!All of my TCSM-based muses I, frankly, consider to be my own OCs at this point - considering how much I've worked on adding to them since rebooting & adding them. Like mentioned above, although some things will, of course, still be considered & utilize the various canon interpretions across the Texas Chainsaw Massacre franchise, the characters as they appear here are from my own work put into them, as well as the connections, bonds, & plotlines created between myself & my writing partners. Aspects of the characters as they appear here are not to be simply ripped from & applied to other portrayals - not with my knowledge, my writing partners' knowledge(s), etc. I ask this is respected not just for myself but for those I write with, as well.

PERSONAL TRIGGERS

The following are things that I request get tagged for me to block, and Do Not Send To Me:
- saliva / spit / french kissing ( either by graphic descriptions, images, gifs, etc. / trauma - related )
- spiders / arachnids / arachnophobia
- trypophobia & thalassophobia
- parental death / cancer ( specifically cancer-related; personal loss )
- any plots / jokes regarding fatal car accidents ( personal loss )
- any plots relating whatsoever to cnc / r-pe / s.a. / or other non-consensual acts. ( trauma-related )
- body horror ( including multiple eyes / limbs / mouths / etc. on human / animal / etc )
- images of actual animal death, injury, abuse, etc. ( not artistic renditions unless overly gorey just simply animal death / injury / abuse / gore )

MAIN TCM AU'S

THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE muses here make up most of my roster at the moment, if not all of them - however, I am willing and open to writing them within other medias, so long as I'm aware enough of them! Across the board, I am open to general fantasy or BG3 related verses, other horror or slasher media like Scream, F13, or DBD au's, and closed-off verses with Affiliates.I am always down with creating both numerous AU's with writing partners, and with making au routes within those where the initial plot may have different branch-off where what-if scenarios could take place! Always feel free to ask me about this!AS FOR TCM AU'S IN GENERAL :These are Roses & Thorns ( in affiliation with Lamb's Johnny), and Buckshot ( featuring an NPC Johnny Sawyer ).⚘ Roses & Thorns
encompasses all main trajectories that will tie back with the worldbuilding & dynamics Lamb & I have built between his Johnny and my muses. These trajectories include the Hewitt family as an extension to the Sawyers due to the work Lamb & I have done together to incorporate them in.⚘ Buckshot
more closely follows the events as they are laid out within gun media's lore. Just with my own spin on it. This au will have a set NPC Johnny Sawyer for me to work with regarding his & maria's interactions within these trajectories. With respect to my exclusivity status, any mentions of Johnny under the Buckshot AU will always be in reference to this NPC Johnny.
- Does not include the Hewitts' as an extension to the Sawyer family.
- Additionally, all interactions that have not been plotted / worked on / etc. with both mine & Lamb's input together with anyone will Default to this AU! So should we be mutuals but you aren't following Lamb, or vice versa, & we do not arrange to talk together in a GC about those connections between our muses? Assume all interactions, then, will be based with Buckshot.As a side note : My listed Dire AU's ( Cold Case, No One Saved You, Choke Chained ) I am fairly protective & cautious of just because of the types of Content that may crop up in said AU's. So understand I may not open those AU's up to those outside of that list unless its been talked about among myself & Lamb & Kels especially, considering for CC / Choke & for NOSY they are both vital parts of those AU's and I am Not comfortable with them being left out of plotlines dealing within our respective au's for it, due to rising issues with a former writing partner who we had invited to plot within CC & Choke. Anything that ties back to plots or ideas that are offered for any of the Dire AU's will need to be ran by each of us & then ideally spoken about together in a GC so all of our respective inputs & characters are respected and heard from directly!

FANDOMS WHOSE CHARACTERS I WON'T INTERACT WITH :
_{( exceptions made to multis but I will simply block any of these characters' tags and will not send or answer anything sent in from them )}---- supernatural, dr who, hazbin hotel / etc., until dawn / the quarry / etc, stephen kings' works unless the character is in some way ripped away and made the muns' own, any sort of anime / manga / etc or animated character in the realms of like, disney / pixar / dreamworks etc or like sonic or whatever - this isn't the blog for that lmao.FANDOMS WHOSE CHARACTERS I WILL BE VERY SELECTIVE ABOUT :---- hannibal, nightmare on elm street ( namely which version of krueger we're talking about ), creepypasta / analog horror type shit,

ON DNI's, CALLOUTS, WARNINGS, ETC

last updated : September 2025 .

I'm going to attempt to be as concise but as encompassing as possible regarding these topics as best as I can mostly because I just truly Do Not Care at this point to entertain certain behaviors and shit anymore. 15+ years dealing with things in this vein is beyond exhausting and frankly, as someone who has been doing work offsite this past year to better my mental and emotional states so that I learn to not allow myself to either placate harmful or disrespectful people in any of my circles anymore or allow myself to be walked all over or in other extreme cases be abused further? This page hopefully will kinda touch on these topics and give my stance going forward regarding them:

WITH CALLOUTS :
Again, oftentimes in my experience of seeing them floating around and getting circulated by the hundreds? The content or behaviors in general are more often than not, shit that never needed to be aired out in a public manner. I will not like or reblog anyones callout unless again, its under very specific circumstances - typically, if the person is a Legitimate Threat to peoples' safety. If I notice within certain callouts that alot of the discussion / points being made relate back to the persons' mental / emotional / psychological states ( especially done in a negative or harmful manner as a way to demonize them or, aka, help 'fluff up' the claims / accusations / etc being made within the callout ) chances are, I will simply hardblock everyone involved in said callout to curate my space.

WITH DNI's :
As noted before, I don't do public DNI lists - especially not with any users being noted down anywhere publically.Have I considered it before? Sure. On several occasions. But, each time I've come to find that I just really don't give a shit all that much on who any mutual may be writing with for anyone on my personal DNI. Outside of what should be pretty obvious to know, such as those who are Trump supporters / MAGA, racist, transphobic, homophobic, xenophobic, zionists, sexist, etc. you get the point, I hope - I otherwise do not give a single fuck if you happen to also write with someone I have blocked or steer clear of for any personal reason. I give warnings to my friends' and/or those affected by said people just so they can look out for their own peace - I will not be nor have I ever crawled into mutuals' inboxes, anonymous nor name-attached, or into DMs to toss a bunch of word vomit about a person or situation. I have been asked about shared / similar past experiences - but I do not approach people with the purpose of putting anyone I no longer interact with on blast like I know some choose to do. It's not my business who others interact with - I do not care.I'm not here to puff my chest point fingers and try dictating to anyone else in this shared space who they can or can't write or talk or be friends with. I'm on this site to write and chill and chat characters and plots with my close friends and the mutuals I interact with. I don't give a shit about anyone who is no longer in my space. They are out of it for a reason but those reasons are my own - not the public.With this being said, this is what I'll say I Don't and Will Not Tolerate with any mutuals of mine who may happen to also follow and interact with anyone I personally have on my private DNI :Simply put? No one but myself, the person, or anyone else directly involved have any proper understanding of any sort of fallout that may have occurred. I don't care what said person may claim what they perceive as wrongs done towards them - if anyone who is mutuals with myself and anyone on my DNI approaches me and regurgitates those claims and asks or demands any sort of explanation? My thoughts on said mutual will drop. Because frankly? Why are you getting involved in business thats 1. personal, 2. you were never involved with, 3. don't remotely know the events and already have a, likely, heavily skewed version spat at your feet regarding anyone else actually involved? If someone happens to be mutuals with both myself and someone on my private DNI and they approach me prodding about whatever situation it may be? Depending on what it is? Sure, I may just share my end of things. Or, I simply won't entertain the questions. Because, again. Any issue I may have with someone on my DNI is highly likely something personal, and revolves around my own traumas' or mental / psychological states being messed with, and that especially? No one's business but my own, unless I choose to disclose them - or, it was a case of simple disrespect I refused to tolerate, or, we simply went our separate ways and that should be the end of it. Most of the handful of people on that list, that last part rings true for.Long story short : If you ( generalized ) approach me with any sort of bullshit said by someone I already have hardblocked and have told to stay the fuck away from me and they're using you ( generalized ) or others to skirt past that by getting you ( generalized ) involved? Chances are, that mutual will also be getting a hardblock from me. Again - Don't care if anyone wants to interact or be friends or whatever with any of these people. I don't give that much of a fuck to dictate that shit to anyone, as I know certain people like to try doing. But, I will curate my space to keep it stress-free and problem-free and that includes people who try to pry with the intention of feeding back whatever I may say to those I have hardblocked for a Reason. I'm not interested in that kinda shit, contrary to some of their beliefs. I'm here to write with my friends and with the mutuals who reflect the same no-tolerance for these veins of bullshit. If you're someone who happens to wanna stick your nose where it doesn't belong because someone else happens to sprinkle Tea in your lap? You can keep that energy and stay away from me too <3.

WITH WARNING ABOUT CERTAIN PEOPLE :
I already touched on it a bit above, but, to reiterate : No, I won't be going around into mutuals' inboxes or DMs to dish out "warnings" about those I have blocked and DNI'd. I don't do that shit - outside of warning inner friend circles who likely already Know that person and Know the situation whether upfront of from sidelines and already Know what they did or said. Some people may like to parade that fact around under the guise of "looking out for others well-being" - I call it what it, more often than not, actually ends up being : A way for them to continue talking shit about a person but to new ears. More often than not, its to get other people who barely know them and who barely know the person being "warned" about to listen to their one-sided gossip so they can feel some sort of high from it. That's it. Rarely, from what I've seen, is it ever done with actual pure intention to warn and move on. Its almost always someone who refuses to simply get on with their own lives or do any actual self-reflection on their part of any fallout that doesn't paint everyone else but their own actions in a bad light.

SPEAKING A BIT PERSONALLY WITH THE ABOVE IN MIND :I'm here to write, at the end of the day. I sincerely don't care about what these people I have on my DNI list are doing around on tumblr.com. I don't care if my mutuals happen to also be mutuals with someone I no longer associate or write with or am no longer friends with. Anything surrounding my private DNI list and my issues with those individuals will otherwise remain just that : private. I'm too old to continue dealing with the immaturity that comes with people refusing to actually grow, self-reflect, blame-shift, move on and live their lives. Don't need to keep me living rent-free in your head this long.I have had an amazing, loving, caring, and supportive group of friends met through TCSM for the past two years. They've shown me so much about navigating my own personal struggles with keeping friendships, not allowing negative inner thoughts affect my bonds with them, having patience, and setting realistic and respectful boundaries and expectations on what i means to be a friend while also juggling both offsite obligations and others in my life. They have taught me many things about self-respect and sticking to boundaries and not letting myself go docile and allow disrespect by people no longer in my life for one reason or another. As well as enforcing realistic boundaries when it comes to RPing in general.

And frankly, I thank those I've met and still remained friends with in these last two years for that and also the friend I made this year after shit went down with a long-term, abusive offsite friendship of mine finally ending. For me to gather enough courage to not be afraid of setting boundaries or being upfront when shit makes me uncomfortable. And I wish that manifested sooner than it really kicked in at the start of this year for me so I could have handled the various things going on last year better, but, can't really place a timeline on shit like that. I've watched my friends now either navigate peoples unprompted and unacceptably demanding expectations or disrespect and at least for a particular offsite former friend? Watching my current friends made me more confident in the decision I made back in March, with stepping away from an incredibly toxic, abusive, overwhelming and excessively possessive former offsite friend who has honestly given me a shitload of trauma over the ~17 years I knew her.Trauma doesn't have a time limit nor does it always weasel its way back to the forefront at the exact moment something is done or said. Sometimes it lurks in the background and stays partly-dormant until something else is said or done following it that makes you realize or connect some dots that you didn't pick up on when it happened. Tip-toeing around not upsetting anyone or having them blow up on me has been a long-standing recurring issue since I was a kid, navigating that with abusive family and an addicted brother with a massive rage and violence problem especially back then. I often default to shutting down and staying silent when I Do have an issue or concern because of it. Going from being in an abusive family dynamic that was primarily physically and psychologically abusive up to my later teen years into an emotionally / psychologically abusive friendship from my early-mid teens into my adults years up to finally cutting ties this year? Healing and processing all of it has been back burnered for many years at this point, and I'm still painfully slowly working through that for my own sake.I'm not going to compare this former offsite friends' actions directly to anything thats happened through rp - because frankly, me noticing similar patterns of behavior or trains of thoughts that I've seen in others through fucking rp of all things isn't what I want to lose any more braincells on. Trauma and triggers are very rarely logical but they can stir up at anything that happens to remind you of an experience. And I have no fucks to spare to explain that - and honestly, that is no ones fucking business, friend or not, unless that is a decision made by me - not anyones perceived notion of closeness. I've already had a so-called long-term friend who I entrusted so much of my traumas to who then, repeatedly, showed me exactly why I never should have. Who I choose to disclose those with now is severely limited thanks to family and this former friend and frankly has been even in these two years. Barely knowing a thing about me for a friendship that hardly lasted a couple months does not warrant anyone knowing that level of shit from me. Ever. In any capacity that I don't feel comfortable or safe in disclosing, period. And especially not when even in that amount of time I already knew in my gut to not entrust the majority of those sorts of conversations with certain people. I'm speaking vaguely about this particular former friendship now in relation to my personal DNI list however because I choose to. Because I saw patterns or similar thoughts or behaviors, not as extreme but enough to sound off alarm bells in my head, exhibited in some manner or another from my 17 years being around this ex-friend to what I see sometimes cropping up in certain corners across tumblr rp. And I have zero intention of letting myself fall back into anything even vaguely related to the type of shit and abuse she put me through for over half my life.I curate my space here on tumblr to weed out, block, and keep away not just former writing partners or friends but also those who ring similar alarm bells in my head to the shit my family and this ex-friend put me through. This being said, yet again to reiterate what I noted in the above sections : I do not care if any mutual of mine also happens to be a mutual of anyone on that list. It is private for a reason. I choose to place my energy to focus on myself and my friends who I love and care about instead.So, again. Write with whoever you want to - your blog is your own space, I do not care about these people to the degree of dishing warnings to paint a one-sided narrative. But, a single warning I do give, in general : If I do find out, because likely I would at some point or another, people aren't as sneaky or smart as they think they are, that there is any sort of vaguing or shittalking about me going on from anyone on that list to a current mutual? I will hardblock all blogs involved - regardless of any connections, plots, etc going on, for my own peace of mind. Any prying, especially when done in bad faith or intention on feeding back any responses from me to those people, also will be hardblocked. Too many people don't act their age no matter how much they claim to do so. I'm personally too geriatric to do anything but watch from my front porch and chuckle now and then and then boot people I feel I need to.The people in my life now are who I choose to focus my energy on. And for the last couple months, honestly, I have been the happiest I've been in a hot minute - even despite the offsite stressors and dealing with this ex-friend still trying to force contact now and then. Otherwise? I don't care if I co-exist on a website with anyone from that list. Use your own judgement if you ever get approached by frankly, anyone trying to "warn" you about someone - that in of itself, especially when done towards people they barely know or newly met, is often done ( at least in my eyes ) to gossip about someone they don't like and many people uninvolved, unfortunately, will love to eat that shit up for some free Tea. Just remember that falling outs typically have their Reasons - shit rarely ever crumbles without there being good reason. And not all of those reasons either had the chance to be spoken about, or, those involved weren't close or trusted enough to even be disclosed certain things. Friendships =/= full uncensored access to anyone or their traumas or triggers. Just because one person may like to disclose that freely does Not mean anyone else in that friendship does.Hope that helps.

[ content warning for the link noted below this message : mentions of an abusive former long-term friendship with triggering behavior. do not open, skip if needed. ]AN EXTRA NOTE. : do not open if mentions of abusive behavior or potentially triggering experiences is upsetting.Continuing from where the previous page left off - again, go back if talks of abuse, manipulation, possible SA, SI and threats relating to it, and so on are particularly upsetting.

Without those who are currently in my friend circle, I probably would not have been able to step away and cut off an extremely toxic, overwhelming, clingy, and frankly abusive long-term friendship offsite earlier this year if not for them showing in different ways what it means to be an actual friend.Because of them and how they've showed up even in the smallest and simplest of ways over these past two years? I got the courage to step away from a "friend" who constantly blurred the lines between platonic and romantic boundaries in our friendship without me willingly, enthusiastically, expressing my okay with it, who pressured me to make certain Promises to them by emotionally manipulating and draining me into getting a Yes from me ( ie. made me promise to 1. be her Surrogate after she had a medical crisis despite knowing my own trauma surrounding possibly having children of my own that I had been extremely vocal about with her for several years at that point ( my maternal grandmother was a rape apologist, attempted to steal my older two half-siblings away from my mother to allow him access to them, and mentally, emotionally, physically abused my mother most of her life before switching to being a manipulative bitch for most of my mothers' adult life and continuing to abuse her financially, with "family values" bullshit, etc. And because of the abuse my mother suffered from my maternal grandmother? My mother in turn was abusive to us for majority of our lives. I had repeatedly told this friend about this, especially as I myself learned more about my familys' history --- I had made it clear on countless occasions in what I felt was a safe space to speak about it to this friend, about how absolutely terrified I was at the thought of ever becoming pregnant or having children in any capacity --- and yet she pushed and pleaded and guilt-tripped me with her medical crisis into agreeing to becoming a surrogate for her if she were to ever want a kid; 2. pushed me into saying Yes when she began incessantly asking me that if we weren't both women ( at the time of these conversations, I had not started to identify as non-binary ) and either she or I "were a man", if I would date her or start a family with her or be in love with her - I repeatedly tried to avoid those questions because they made me insanely fucking uncomfortable, especially when she just. offered her own confirmation that she was essentially In Love With Me - and she became more insistent on getting the answer she wanted until I finally was worn down and said yes to placate her. She had also attempted to get me to Suicide Pact with her. That was probably the One thing she couldn't actually get me to say yes on. This friend who for maybe lack of better term but it sounds right for me to consider them as such, who essentially SA'd me on several occasions which led to me at first pretending to 'fall asleep' in her livingroom to avoid being in the same bed as her and then entirely shooting down any pleas from her to stay any nights at her place, who would threaten harming or ending themselves in order to get me to do or say or behave the way they wanted me to, who locked themselves in their room claiming to want to harm themselves and convinced her mother to call me in a panic to come over and talk her down ( with them both knowing fully well that she had two guns hidden in her room and easily accessible to her, knowing exactly where they were. I genuinely was for a long time terrified of going over there because honestly? I was fucking terrified of her using them on me and then herself. And honestly? Part of me still very much is. ), both of who treated me as some sort of personal attack dog & sole protector of that friend and would tell me any time we had plans to go out that it was my "responsibility to step in and fight for her if anyone said or did anything to her", referred to me as not only "a Man", but specifically "Her Man" and treated me as if I was a mix of her "boyfriend", "personal bodyguard", and "father" ( this especially escalated after hers passed, I won't bring this up further ).I would confide in her about an array of extremely personal, triggering, traumatic experiences and the next time I would see her mother... her mother would start bringing those issues up attempt to parent and/or scold me over them and said friend couldn't fathom why I then almost entirely stopped confiding in her after a while. She knew many of my phobias and the extents regarding them of how they may trigger a reaction in me, and she would literally continuously send me those things, unprompted, unhidden, so they'd be the first things I'd see pop up in notifs or when I'd open DMs. She is, also, the lone former co-writer who I had written nsfw content with for most of my writing lifespan up to the last couple of years when I told her I was going through a severe writers block in order to just outright avoid writing with her all together, and is almost solely the main reason I have so many fucking issues navigating or attempting to explore that space - from types of content she would push us to write or talk about, to sending me pornographic videos or making me watch them with her when I'd go over to her place, asking personal invasive questions regarding sex or relationships and getting upset and pushy if I didn't answer her or answer in the way she wanted, and other shit in this vein.With some of the points I made above, when I started to also identify as Demiromantic? She genuinely seemed to believe that me expressing that meant I was specifically in love with her because we'd been friends for so long so clearly who else could it be, apparently? I cannot describe how bad those invasive questions mentioned above got after that. How constant and how probing and how fucking uncomfortable it was for someone you thought was simply a friend sit there staring at you demanding to know if you had anyone you felt romantically attracted to to fish and see if it was herself.I could not exist as my own person without her feeling like she needed to be attached to my hip or in touch with me talking for hours on end, daily. I once tried to test the waters and see if maybe she would enjoy tumblr rp with two of our paired ocs, which caused a massive blow up at me and led to her yet again threatening to harm herself over it. She was scarily possessive for most of the ~17 years I was friends with her. I ended up deleting all my tumblr accounts at the time because she kept looking them up and rehashing the argument all over again just for them existing but remaining untouched. And that ended up being the only and last time I had ever brought up tumblr rp to her. Which, again - I've been writing on here for over 15 yrs and I knew her ~17. Damn near almost our entire friendship I felt I had to keep my outside writing a secret from her else she'd explode on me and threaten herself again. And personal writing had always been a de-compressor for me with alot of the shit and abuse I dealt with at home and growing up. Feeling like I had to hide it for years because she was so possessive over me and constructing all these narratives in her head that if I looked literally anywhere or to anyone but Her, that meant that I Hated her, that I didn't Care about her, and that I "would be better off without her" if she did something to herself in order to get me to panic and react and try to console and reassure her that those weren't at all my thoughts and push my own frustrations with her doing that while pushing aside my OWN triggers and trauma regarding SI to focus on making her happy instead ). Alot of our friendship was me shoving down my own thoughts, ignoring, placating, or dismissing the manipulation and abuse she put me through so she wouldn't feel bad or do anything to herself.And alot of that passivity and placating and silence and not voicing issues or boundaries with people stems from the consistent disregard and abuse I dealt with not just growing up from people within my family, but also because of this specific ex-friend too. I had isolated myself for a number of years and for several reasons from old friends but the primary reason? Was because any time I spoke about someone else around her or about any plans I'd make with someone other than her? Jealous breakdown, accusations and assumptions about what I thought of her, threats to herself, and so much more than I could recall or list frankly. 17 years I felt like I was navigating a minefield with her. And unfortunately to myself, I allowed it to continue for as long as it did out of fear for her actually ever following through. And even after cutting ties and not responding to the continued attempts to reach out that shes made in the months since March 2025, when I ended shit, I am still terrified of getting a call or a pounding on my front door and being told she did. But I quite literally can not be a lifeline for a person trying to drown not only herself but who also seems intent on shoving me under with her.And frankly, I thank those I've met and still remained friends with in these last two years for that and also the friend I made this year after that shit went down. For me to gather enough courage to not be afraid of setting boundaries or being upfront when shit makes me uncomfortable. And I wish that manifested sooner than it really kicked in at the start of the year for me so I could have handled the various things going on last year better, but, can't really place a timeline on shit like that. I've watched my friends now either navigate peoples unprompted and unacceptably demanding expectations or disrespect and at least for this offsite ex-friend in particular for me? Watching my friends made me more confident in the decision I made back in March.Trauma doesn't have a time limit nor does it always weasel its way back to the forefront at the exact moment something is done or said. Sometimes it lurks in the background and stays partly-dormant until something else is said or done following it that makes you realize or connect some dots that you didn't pick up on when it happened. Tip-toeing around not upsetting anyone or having them blow up on me has been a long-standing recurring issue since I was a kid, navigating that with abusive family and an addicted brother with a massive rage and violence problem especially back then. I often default to shutting down and staying silent when I Do have an issue or concern because of it. And with an ex-friend who shifted those gears of feeling unsafe from things being primarily physically abusive from my family into just emotional abuse and manipulating those trauma responses and those having an overlap and then continuing with her in my 20s? Healing and processing all of it has been back burnered for many years up to this point, and I'm still painfully slowly working through that for my own sake.This was therapeutic to write it down again. I'm not going to compare this former friends' actions - because frankly, me noticing similar patterns of behavior or trains of thoughts that I've seen in others through fucking rp of all things isn't what I want to lose any more braincells on. Trauma and triggers are very rarely logical but they can stir up at anything that happens to remind you of an experience. And I have no fucks to spare to explain that - and honestly, that is no ones fucking business, friend or not, unless that is a decision made by me - not anyones perceived notion of closeness. I've already had a so-called long-term friend who I entrusted so much of my traumas to who then, repeatedly, showed me exactly why I never should have. Who I choose to disclose those with now is severely limited thanks to family and this former friend and frankly has been even in these two years. Barely knowing a thing about me for a friendship that hardly lasted a couple months does not warrant anyone knowing that level of shit from me. Ever. In any capacity that I don't feel comfortable or safe in disclosing, period. And especially not when even in that amount of time I already knew in my gut to not entrust the majority of those sorts of conversations with certain people. I'm speaking about this particular former friendship now however because I choose to. Because I saw patterns or similar thoughts or behaviors exhibited in some manner or another from my 17 years being around this ex-friend to what I see sometimes cropping up in certain corners across tumblr rp. And I have zero intention of letting myself fall back into anything even vaguely related to the type of shit and abuse she put me through for over half my life.I curate my space here on tumblr to weed out, block, and keep away not just former writing partners or friends but also those who ring similar alarm bells in my head to the shit my family and this ex-friend put me through. Those few on my private DNI list, again, are there for varying reasons - not nearly as extreme obviously as my experience with this offsite friend. But, concerning enough to me that I know I just simply don't want them near me - and I don't care if a random person disagrees on that. This being said, yet again to reiterate what I noted on the previous pages' sections : I do not care if any mutual of mine also happens to be a mutual of anyone on that list. It is private for a reason. I choose to place my energy to focus on myself and my friends who I love and care about instead.So, again. Write with whoever you want to - your blog is your own space, I do not care about these people to the degree of dishing warnings to paint a one-sided narrative. But, a single warning I do give, in general : If I do find out, because likely I would at some point or another, people aren't as sneaky or smart as they think they are, that there is any sort of vaguing or shittalking about me going on from anyone on that list to a current mutual? I will hardblock all blogs involved - regardless of any connections, plots, etc going on, for my own peace of mind. Any prying, especially when done in bad faith or intention on feeding back any responses from me to those people, also will be hardblocked. Too many people don't act their age no matter how much they claim to do so. I'm personally too geriatric to do anything but watch from my front porch and chuckle now and then and then boot people I feel I need to.The people in my life now are who I choose to focus my energy on. And for the last couple months, honestly, I have been the happiest I've been in a hot minute - even despite the offsite stressors and dealing with this ex-friend still trying to force contact now and then. Otherwise? I don't care if I co-exist on a website with anyone from that list. Use your own judgement if you ever get approached by frankly, anyone trying to "warn" you about someone - that in of itself, especially when done towards people they barely know or newly met, is often done ( at least in my eyes ) to gossip about someone they don't like and many people uninvolved, unfortunately, will love to eat that shit up for some free Tea. Just remember that falling outs typically have their Reasons - shit rarely ever crumbles without there being good reason. And not all of those reasons either had the chance to be spoken about, or, those involved weren't close or trusted enough to even be disclosed certain things. Friendships =/= full uncensored access to anyone or their traumas or triggers. Just because one person may like to disclose that freely does Not mean anyone else in that friendship does.Hope that helps.

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THE UPROOTING.

THE LANDS OF ELESSAANE.

A sanctuary tucked away from human eyes, hidden beneath the branches and greenery of a behemoth white willow tree — Elessaane was a flourishing expanse of rolling hills, dense forests, sky-touching mountain ranges and pockets of meadows abundant in seas of colorful flowers. Lands untainted by human touch and greed and violence. Kept safe under the careful eyes of a minor forest god known only by few by the name Nyuuris. His lands promised peace and growth and warmth to those willing to keep one simple thing sacred — Elessaane was to remain a safe-haven for his daughters above all. Death may be as natural as life itself — however, bloodshed must be kept to what is deemed strictly necessary for survival and nothing more. Anything or anyone who violated that simple ask would be cast out of the sanctuary, or, in turn be dealt with by whatever means Nyuuris deemed appropriate.The great white willow stood at the center of these lands, a rooted, physical embodiment of Nyuuris himself, whose reach grazed the stars at night and disappeared among the clouds in the sunlight. Here, closest to the great willow, laid the infrastructure of his daughters' homes — staircases and archways carved out of the earth and stone itself, descending underground for safety and privacy among the trees' thick, entangled root systems. From all directions could the willow tree be seen — when granted the approval of Nyuuris himself — however, to his daughters' and to the creatures living in his lands, the willow tree acts as a marker of where to return home to.Nyuuris, himself, often appears to his daughters' and others as a large, white-furred elk with antlers entangled by — you guessed it — the greeneries of the great white willow. His temperament may appear to steer closer to something of benevolence — however, gods are never to be subjected to the clear cut lines of a mortals' views of emotions, motives, or character. He is as thoughtful and compassionate and kind as any god could ever be, and he is as wrathful and dangerous and deadly as one could be, if he so chooses. There is no drawn line in the sand where he may fall neatly.Luckily, in this verse, Nyuuris has been forced into dormancy.
An indefinite, deep slumber as he attempts to bring Elessaane back to life, into flourish once again after it was laid to ruin.Into a sanctuary as it was once before — so his remaining daughters' may finally return home.

HUMANITY.

Greed, and the violence it takes to sate it.There is something strangely unique to humankind where eyes settle upon other living creatures and within their own fragile bodies grows a festering urge to personally ensure and watch the life drain from anothers' eyes.And its that strange sense of entitlement, greed, bloodthirst that drove Nyuuris to attempt to
protect the lands he watched over — protect his daughters.While they were also granted safe passage across the hills and through the mountains and between the treelines, humans were always kept under watchful eye of the creatures under Nyuuris' care. His daughters' would tuck themselves away, hidden among the fauna or flora until their sights were clear of the intruders. Some of Nyuuris' daughters — the nymphs? Distrustful, quick to scare them far away from their younger, more curious sisters, many who had yet to witness only some of what cruelty humans were capable of.Hunters. Poachers. Murderers.Royals with egos strewn atop their heads,
dazzled in the sunlight by shows of wealth in the forms of embedded gemstones set in gold.The creatures under Nyuuris' care would be hunted, grotesquely slaughtered and displayed as trophies among themselves.His daughters, their fauna-kin, discovered and sought after for rumors of bestowed immortality or other such presumed gifts if one should cut their throats and bask in the ichor that spills from the wound.

THE FALL OF ELESSAANE.

What she remembers last of her old life lies riddled in heat and wet and fear.Former flesh had lived somewhere odd of three hundred years, give a decade or two, with only the rogue scraps of palms or knees or an awkward twist of limb for her to comprehend how pain truly felt as it spilled between skin layers and nerve ends and rooted itself into muscle and bone. And its terrifying, how quickly it hits.Half the world in the scope of her eyes went black.The sky wept in droplets of red.Insides and limbs and head grew heavy.And then there was the scent of poppy petals.And the rest of the world clouded over.Silence, then. For what felt like decades, what felt like minutes, what felt like a millennia.
A calming quiet that settled a heartbeat no longer frantically drumming in her ears and chest.Then the scent of morning dew atop grassblades, cool and sweet—And then the smoke.The heat.The pitch-screeching cries of flora unable to flee.Hands cupped her face, smaller now than before — drew Maria up into arms, and ran.Shield your eyes.
Don't look.
Cover your mouth.Don't look.

THE DAUGHTERS OF NYUURIS.

THE NYMPHS OF ELESSAANE.

His daughters are very rarely born — they are handcrafted by the god himself.They are delicately pieced together using the forms they take. A nymph of the rivers scrawling down the mountainside created by the waters that run cool over smooth stones at its bottom. A nymph of meadows created by the gentleness of early morning dew atop of the grassblades.Maria was created by Nyuuris himself with the petals of wildflowers scattered across the hillsides. Particularly, those of wild poppies — delicate and gentle and boldly red. The flower meadows where air first passed through her lungs for the very first time, filled chest with that sweet smell of soft velvet and the grit of the earth beneath bare feet. Where first steps had been taken, uncertain and wobbly and all out of sorts. The meadows where she met her sisters for the first time, where flowers were carefully set in little messy braids, and laughter accompanied the breezes that brought the meadow alive in their gentle, swaying dance.The nymphs of Elessaane came in great number. Some with lifetimes stretched so far they'd witnessed the beginnings of kingdoms, terrible bloodshed, corruption, followed by their downfalls. Others who were merely little specks in the ever-growing expanse of time and space. Many of Nyuuris' daughters remain in, or nearby, Elessaane — rarely do the nymphs wander astray from their father, from their home, from sanctuary. But handfuls of his daughters — with hearts that ached to venture into the world and see it for all it has to offer — would find themselves led astray by curiosity.— by humans.Daughters who found themselves settling in unfamiliar homes, hearts warmed by love as much as their own little ones were warmed by a hearth. Daughters whose paths carried them away with the winds catching on the sails of ships crossing bodies of water so endless they met the sky in the distance for a quiet kiss. Wherever their chosen paths led them, no matter how far they may have strayed from home, the road always slowly eased back into the cold, stone steps down below the great willow — for what was laid out with the intent for protection, the love of a father, was also the vine that
coiled tight around the throat and pierced the skin with poisoned nettles.

THE BLOODROT.

What one calls protection, others may call a tether.Or a Curse.The tether that bound every one of his daughters to the lands of Elessaane grow taut the further they stray from him, from home. Their safety relies upon proximity — however, due to the ruin that befell Elessaane by the hands of man, the nymphs were forced to flee from their only home, the only place of safety, the only thing they truly ever knew, and scattered like the stars to all corners of their world and the next. Many of their fates remain unknown, decades, centuries, after the ruin.For those, like Maria, like her 'mama', Seraphine, who kept on the move, bouncing from place to place, never settling for long in any one — the Bloodrot slowly began to creep its way in.The rot slowly picks at Nyuuris' daughters — eating away at deep tissue and organ and bonemarrow. The pain it brings is subtle for a long while. Ebbing in and disappearing as lightly as a simple graze of an arm against the bark of a tree — something to simply brush off and go about your way again, as if nothing occurred. But the rot slumbers quietly, feasting at insides with an aching crawl that puts the drippings of molasses to shame. Picks at bone like vulture to carrion until it hits the right angle and shoots off screaming fire in every stretch of nerve.The Bloodrot is a clear warning :
You've strayed too far, young one — it is time to return home.The trek back to the Ruins of Elessaane isn't necessarily as dangerous as it is heavy with heartbreak. A land once so full and lush with life now laid barren and hollow, singed from edge through to the great white willow tree at its center — its canopy without its delicate greeneries providing cover and safety to those underneath it.Evidence of a god now dormant.While Nyuuris may be in rest in attempt to revive the lands he once watched over, his remaining daughters must find the curves in their paths to circle back to Elessaane — else the Bloodrot will only worsen. The lands of Nyuuris may have withered and burned but the boundaries around it which keep his daughters alive, safe, remains intact; albeit, severely lessened, nowadays with the gods' slumber. The Bloodrot cannot be cured. It cannot be held back. It cannot be reverted — Not fully, at least. Who knows? The flesh of the nymphs so carefully, so lovingly, created by Nyuuris himself must find its way back to him, so that in his dormancy, he may, as he is with Elessaane, carefully heal what the rot has taken from his daughters.And the Bloodrot, in their years away from Elessaane, had finally rooted itself along Seraphines' spinal cord and made itself at home. And, though it still remains quiet — has tenderly began to pick at the curvatures of Marias' heart.The gift — the love — of a god being double-edged :blessing and curse.

BORN OF WILD POPPIES.

QUICK FACTS ABOUT MARIA & THE NYMPHS.

WHERE WE STAND NOW.

FROM HIDING, TO WYTHORNE.

For whatever the reason may have been, the path that Marias' life had herself walking down found itself now in the halls of Wythorne — a fresh-faced student staring down at the scrawl of Verdancy laid neatly across paper. The study of living systems and their magic.Innate abilities that she herself had lost, when her former self had burned along with Elessaane.The strange little calling card drew her to the quiet island the school rested upon — her curiosity piqued, as well as a burning hope igniting in her chest that, maybe — just maybe — she may stumble upon an answer to rid her mama, rid Seraphine, of the Bloodrot.Even if it may not fare well for herself.